Bismillahirrahmanirrahim 23!

How does it feel to be twenty three?
I think I’m about to freak out. Wait, I already am. Being 23 and all is overwhelming. Maybe age is just a number, but for me, it is also about achievements. And these couple days it got me thinking. What have I done in the last 23 years?????
 Anyone could explain to me briefly??
 Is there someone fearless to show me???
And I got The answer is: NOT MUCH

I’m still nowhere to make everyone in my life happy and proud. Not even my parents. Perhaps,they are proud of me, I would never know because They never tell me so.

But whatever I might feel inside and whatever my twisted mind trying to tell me, one thing I know is: I am lucky surrounded by people who love me. For who I am. Helmy is a bitch. Helmy is (ocassionaly) unpleasant to be with. Helmy is so self center, a stubborn Helmy with all her egoistic stuffs, she wants the universe revolves around her. And that, sometimes, drift people away from her. But still, I am trying every day in my life to be a better person. NOT THE BEST BUT BETTER.

And a thing : I am so grateful and blessed to have so many kind and special people in my life. And I thank you all,mates. Be my reminder and soldier in every single days of my life. Mum,Dad, My two little brothers and lil sister, and Dear Friends! You are all, making me believe I can do things that seems impossible to do. And I want to thank for this text several years ago was sent to me, is able to change my whole mind. Just by saying

“Masih perlu mandiri dulu,masih perlu banyak berkarya dan berprestasi dulu,masih ada banyak hal diluar sana yang perlu kita lakukan”

( I put the full version in here )

and you know? It changed me a lot, I thank you. And the only one reason,you are all exist to me is because Allah SWT who brought you and all I have now. Alhamdulillahirabbilalamin. I know Allah loves me much more.

 They say, life begins at twenty. I say, life begins when you know how to be grateful.

And I am still learning.

So, welcome, twenty three. Let’s get awesome together!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Rise and Shine